That horrendous in-between feeling

You know that feeling?

That one where you’re caught RIGHT in the middle and you aren’t sure of what to do.

You can either hit column A or you can hit column B.

Both seems to have their own pros and cons.

You are just undecided and totally unsure of what to do. And as result… you do nothing at all.

Jack shit.

Hi, my name is Alden Tan and I just fucked things up lol

I just terminated my subscription for Empower Network.


Previously I made those huge-ass announcements of joining EN and how I wanted to leverage on my knowledge of writing and teaching and then get EN to do the job of selling for me.

But nah. Just after 5 days in I felt a huge sense of regret.

It wasn’t that I lacked confidence. I just didn’t see myself constantly marketing and selling EN to people and then motivating a team of people to sell EN themselves.

I see myself as a writer. I see an empire of eBooks under me soon, and then eventually publishing a real, hardcover book.

And that I’m doing now. I’m writing furiously every day for my own blog, for guest posts and a new eBook that’s going to be released soon.

But anyway here’s the thing…

I was in that in-between feeling for a few days

I was like, “Oh man I’m gonna look so stupid” and “Oh man that’s fucking money down the drain. Should I just leave it on and hope someone signs up so I can get commissions?”

It was horrible.

You just don’t know to go to X or Y. It’s always 50% all the way. Half your heart is in both.

What do you do?

That’s when you really make a firm choice, fuck it and just move the hell on and make shit happen

And so I terminated EN forever.

You just got to do that all the time man. THAT VERY CHOICE.

Then stick with it.

Now, this isn’t just about crossroads and shit…

That in-between feeling is invading your life A LOT.

Maybe it’s in your mind, “Should I quit my job? Should I follow my passion? Should go join that competition?”

Maybe it’s in your social life, “That asshole really annoys me, but I’ll just hang around anyway. I don’t want to come across as petty”.

And oh man THIS classic in-between feeling is in your life fo’ sure:

How often do you find yourself bored in your room? You feel bored. You want to do something fun or productive, but…

… you just hang around in a state-like trance,  living, breathing in autopilot.

That’s when you keep surfing Facebook and check random friends’ statues out for no reason. You keep scrolling.

That’s when you go on Twitter or Instagram to check what’s everyone up to. You keep reading.

That’s when you keep clicking on the related videos on YouTube. You keep watching.

And you don’t even feel like it’s fun or energizing.

Time to step it up man.

Make that decision. If you’re at 50%, it means whichever decision you make wouldn’t be that bad anyway.

Don’t look back. Keep going forward. There’s no such thing as regrets when you look straight.

Go do epic shit and make awesome things happen. THEN go take break.

Make it a good break. Recharge and indulge in whatever you wanna do. Even if you still want to thrash around social media, you’d probably feel better doing so by then anyway.

Forward is the only way to go

Hovering in between is dead time yo. It’s dead while you’re alive, which means you’re a zombie.

Life is just too short for any of that shit.

Anyway, I’ve taken down the two articles on blogging and writing. I decided that they’re good to be free (lol).

Nah I always wanted to create an eBook on teaching people how to write, so watch out for Zen Blogging: The little book of writing mastery real soon.

On the upside of things, my latest eBook, Ready Your Life, the spiritual successor of Revive Your Life has been selling well.


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  1. Matt Maresca - April 8, 2013 5:01 pm

    Oh yeah man, I get that feeling all the time. You put time and/or money into something, then you realize it isn’t worth it but you feel like you gotta keep putting more time/money into it to justify your original efforts. But you can’t do it whole-heartedly because you still know it just isn’t right for you. It’s called throwing good money (or time) after bad. Even just having it lingering around could be weighing you down in some way, so congrats on cutting your weight loose. Making that kind of decision is more important than you probably realize when you make it, but I bet you felt the difference as soon as you made it.

    • alden - April 9, 2013 5:22 am

      Yeah man. I guess you could say the choice was at least given to you. It’s not easy, but by moving forward, you get what you want already.

  2. Shawn - April 8, 2013 5:32 pm

    I know how you feel. I recently decided to quit my job and pursue my passion.
    And, I almost joined the empower network too. But I decided not to for some of the same reasons that you quit it. I just had a sleazy feeling once I researched it on some other websites and checked out some of the successful people that were pushing EN hardcore. It really is just a pyramid scheme of quick cash marketing. It was not interesting to me and I just couldn’t buy in. Thanks for coming clean on this one.

    • alden - April 9, 2013 5:24 am

      I think it still works, if you take online marketing seriously. But from what I see, it’s about the marketing. Whatever you’re passionate about and want to write about… unless you’ve a celebrity-like personality who can tie in that marketing with EN well, it’s not going to work.

      When I realized it was all about the numbers I didn’t want to do it anymore.

  3. karen crossett - April 8, 2013 5:49 pm

    Good for you Alden. To thine own self be true. If you aren’t then the journey is going to be stressful and filled with anxiety. Keep going with your own sense of self and we need your unique contribution not a pyramid sell out.

    • alden - April 9, 2013 5:24 am

      For sure Karen. Haha. EN may work for others, but not me.


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