I watched Guardians of the Galaxy a few days back alone. I like watching movies alone. There’s no fuss or trouble in dealing with latecomers or people who don’t reply on time.
The movie was alright. But my movie experience was bad.
There were two fucking nerds behind me who kept talking throughout the movie. One of them apparently was dictating to his friend what would happen next.
Look kid, nobody cares if you’re a huge Marvel Fan. The rest of us have not watched the movie and we want to enjoy it, spoiler-free. You also seem to be the kind who only watches the movie-counterpart of a series, not read the comics or books and then claim you’re a hardcore fan. Even your lack of life needs to get a life.
You wanna know why you two bespectacled scrawny fucks are watching a movie together? It’s because neither of you can get a girl out. Both you and I know that.
On my right was a couple where the girlfriend was enjoying the movie way too much. She laughed at moments which were not even funny. She asked questions repeatedly to her boyfriend loudly. Most of all, she’d be so amazed at not-really-amazing-at-all movie moments that she had to repeat and narrate whatever that just happened, like, “OOOOH. So that was Ronan’s plan all along!”
And whenever she laughed, she’d go into hysterics by slapping her thigh and rock her seat violently.
Calm the fuck down you crazy bitch. This isn’t some live stand up where smart, controversial jokes are made to make you think. It’s just a typical blockbuster. Vin Diesal reportedly said he recorded his line, “I am Groot” more than a thousand times, but that doesn’t mean you need to open your god damn mouth a thousand times!
I was so annoyed by the end of the movie that I didn’t bother to stay on for the after-credits scene. I stormed out. I really wanted nothing more than these annoying fucks to die.
Look… Look at the hate I just wrote. Can you feel the hate emanating from my writing?
And, cut. No more CGI bullshit. Let’s get to the real stuff. Get ready. It’s going to get even more dramatic.
The monster in all of us
Hey… I’m a good guy. I’m a cool dude who avoids trouble and aims to help people with my writing. It wasn’t like I lost it in the theatre, confronted them and challenged them to a fight, not that it’d have really helped honestly…
… I was almost twice the size of any of them.
But unfortunately, there’s a monster somewhere lurking within. You may be a good person, but there’s always a dark side. There’s where the monster sleeps.
I always wanted to write about this issue. Are we all really good people or just actors? How good and kind are we really? Does it make a difference just because we don’t act on our (extreme) negative thoughts?
And how secure are we in the idea that we think we’re good people? Are we good enough? Why did I have to state that I was twice the size of them?
The monster leaves us with so many questions.
It it sensitive and petty because we only have tiny non-issues to deal with
It is easy to think that us “good” people have our moments. “We’re only human” we say. Or mostly, “It’s just a small issue. Get over yourself.”
But it’s these small issues which I think makes us into petty and sensitive creatures. Is that to say we’re weak as hell because we let such small shit get to us?
We may not act out in an extreme manner, but instead, our monsters make us revel in annoyance. It is always about being annoyed only.
When we’re annoyed, we pretty much act like bitches. That’s how gossip starts. That’s why we always use sarcasm and make subtle remarks.
That is good because it is safe. We won’t do stupid shit like getting into a fight as we let the monster manifest itself. But yeah, it makes us into little bitches.
So are we truly weak? Or are we just playing safe under the disguise of being nice?
It is a time bomb
There’s an argument going around that criminals are not bad people. They’re good people who made mistakes.
Imagine a person who is tormented everyday by bullies. Nobody gives a shit. Not even the authorities. The person finally couldn’t take it and unleashed hell on his bullies. The person gets in trouble with the law while the bullies are considered alright under the eyes of the law because they were always playing safe and basically being a bunch of bitches.
To extend that debate, there’re probably tons of people who got away with it and not end up in jail because they got lucky or it just worked out somehow. Are they good or bad then?
And since “we’re only human”, we’re at the mercy of luck, good or bad timing, our surroundings or random, spontaneous outbursts we ourselves can’t even explain. That’s why there’re therapy services out there.
We’re only human? We’re also only monsters.
Monsters need to come out
Because we’re all monsters.
There’re also so many “good” people, like me who can explode any minute. I could have easily made myself into the bad guy if I acted out in the theatre and started a fight with any one of those annoying pricks and I’d have been the asshole.
I don’t think there’s a real answer to why good people would other good people to die. That’s extreme.
The bigger question is why this idea has been playfully flying back and forth people’s minds. Oh don’t deny it. You know you thought about it before. Give in to the hate… throw yourself to the darkness…
Don’t be too quick to judge and assume somebody is nice or not. We all have our dark side. Even the the nicest people around can screw up while the bad guys (under the eyes of the law) can be more human than you think.
There’re so many truly good people who have been lambasted and deemed “bad” only because they were inadvertently placed on the wrong side of the press. As such, the other so-called good people start to gossip and spread rumours about them. I know because I have ever been in that position. It’s mind-boggling. Imagine simply minding your own business or even try to help others and somehow they’d turn it against you.
Be aware of who you really are. You may not be as nice as you think.
But eh. Do whatever the fuck you want. I’m humble enough to say I’ll never be a judge.
I’m just a fucking nice monster.