We say we want the best for our friends and loved ones, but deep down, there’s a tiny little bit where we’re glad to see others suffer, for it reassures us that we aren’t the only ones in this world to feel such pain.
We say gossiping is wrong, but we enjoy it. We revel in it as it means for that time we aren’t the screwed up ones, and it elevates us to a high position where we get to give our advice and stuff.
We say we hate to suffer, be sad or lose out, but yet we take pride in the idea that we are the nice ones who finish last, saying it’s okay and stuff. We tell this to others only through complaining though.
Our minds think on a spectrum. Either we’re on the dark end, where negative thoughts overwhelm, ruining our mood and day. Yet, after a little unreasonable switch, we can go to the other bright end, where we laugh for no god damn reason, thinking that life is perfect and we can forgive everything and everybody.
We then try to be grateful for the things we have. Yet we always take it all for granted.
We say money is not everything, but it is usually at different points of our life.
We say looks don’t matter. It’s all about the heart, character, personality and soul. Yet our eyes can’t agree with what our thumping hearts.
We try to be good people, but the excuse is that life gets in the way. We don’t have time to spare, money to give or grudges to easily let go of.
We say we’re happy with the many accomplishments tagged to our name, but we’d easily give it all up to be loved by someone.
So you see, we’re all full of shit.
But I get it.
We all want to be that guy.
That guy, you, who finishes last, who is confused, who is alone but insists you’re fine, who is afraid of success, who is passionate and can only work when you feel it, who wants to fuck shit up but holds back and does the right thing anyway, who loves your best friend but does nothing to ask him or her out.
It’s endless. Trying to be something you’re actually not.
Then you end up with all this shit.
Time to step it up I guess. No more games. No more shit.
Start being who you deserve to be. Why follow rules nobody set up in the first place, in the first place?
Act now. Start somewhere. Cut the crap you. Nobody wants to hear it no more.