I literally wasn’t around at all this whole weekend. I neglected the blog. I didn’t check much of my emails and I even started sleeping earlier like a normal human, which is quite a big thing for me since I’m usually awake when others are asleep.
The reason for that is I had a really intense weekend which knocked me out. I was looking forward to the weekend a hell lot, and it was worth it.
You see, I took part in two competitions which ran consecutively over the weekend.
It was something of great effort to me, part of my drive to just let it go so I can improve in Bboying.
Since last year I made it a point to keep joining competitions to get over my fear of performing. I was always nervous in battles, still am somewhat, but I knew I had to get over that. I mean, why be nervous my whole life?
I joined the 1v1 category. I won a couple of rounds!
And that meant a hell lot to me.
You see, that was the first time in my entire life I won a real battle. Took me 10 years for that, thanks to a lot of excuses I made up in my younger days.
And not having a win under my belt haunted me for a long while.
I always felt inferior to my friends, who were either my age or younger, and already winning competitions and able to let loose on stage.
And feeling like an inferior being was just stifling as hell.
I took part in the Singapore Red Bull Bc One Cipher.
I had zero expectations for this as I knew the competition was stronger.
I didn’t make it through the qualifying round at all.
But it was all good! I had so much fun! The dance floor was intense! I got elbowed in the face LOL. I drank like five cans of Red Bull and the subsequent drop in sugar levels made me sleep at Starbucks later on. Most importantly, a couple of my good friends were there together with me too.
Oh I got a free cap too.
Great weekend indeed.
I had both a win and a loss.
Which brings me to one the best lessons I learnt in life, and which spurs me on to keep joining competitions:
Whether you win or lose in life, you always bring something home
Day 1: I won a couple of battles. I’m happy that I made a step, like finally.
Day 2: I lost, but I learnt a shit load from talking to the judges.
In fact, it is by losing that I think you’ll learn and reflect the most. Remember, failure is your greatest ally.
It’s just best to have zero expectations, so you can go with it, do what you love and aim for what you want. And you can definitely get what you want whether you win or lose.
Guest post at Ryze
The article is called: A B-Boy’s Confession: When You Suck At Your Passion
The post pretty much captures what I’m trying to say and my entire journey as a Bboy so far.
Check it, how I feel and all when I suck. How do YOU feel when you think you suck?
I give reason and purpose, even if you think and suck.
Hope y’all had a good weekend too.