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A look back at my 2012

It’s with great fear I’m writing this.

I just got back from my 2-week trip to California. It was a blast. I stayed in San Francisco with some relatives and we drove to LA and Vegas.

Most importantly, my mom had a lot of fun. She was so happy and she deserved every bit of the fun she had.

And that’s where my fear comes from.

It’s a mixture of coming home after spending 2 whole weeks with my family. Saying good bye to people and a place after so long has its toll on me, especially since I’m bad with good byes. My mom has gone back to work now, and I feel so sad that she has to work so hard just for us, while here I’m just trying to follow a dream.

It’s my fear that I still cannot achieve what I want in 2013, that is to be truly free of financial worry and being able to give my mom the lavish lifestyle she deserves.

That’s the look ahead. But as I’ve written in my previous email to you all, I’m not giving up and I’ve already set my resolutions. There’s a lot to come soon for this blog, so stay tune.

Anyhoo… it was one hell of a 2012. I’ve come a long way and late as I’m with this post, I decided to pen out my thoughts of that year.

Hope you guys can get something out of it.

3,100 subscribers, 50 over guest posts 

My initial aim was simply to hit a thousand subscribers by the end of the year, but I managed to get 3,100. I definitely surprised myself there.

Takeaway: Set your goal, then don’t think about it. Think about executing the smallest step first. It’ll accumulate and probably surprise you.

Meaningful connections online

Danny Iny, Cam Adair, Jason Fonceca, James “Coach Comeback”, to name a few.

You guys are more than fellow connections I made online. You guys are friends. I always look forward to talking on Skype with you all and telling you guys my problems. It’s nice to know there’re people who are just like you.

Takeaway: Hang out with positive people only, people who can fully empathize and will never judge you. Also, there’re real people out there who do crazy stuff like following their dreams like you. Don’t think that you’re alone.

First paycheck ever arrived!

Still far from the dream of a big fat one, but damn, I love it!

First paycheck!

Takeaway: This money was the result of 1 year of hard work. Yes one frigging year, from starting my campaign in guest posting, gathering subscribers to recommending products to them. It may take a while, but don’t give up.

I’m still a bitch

Or a nicer way of putting it, I’m extremely human.

As personal as I’m on my blog and as much positive I want to spread and help you with, I still have my flaws.

I can be extremely vindictive and sensitive at times. Hell I can be pretty angsty too.

This is a love-hate thing to me. On one hand, I want things to go my way, on the other hand, I have trouble letting go of certain things. As a result, my idea of a solution is to simply push shit away and be done with it (lots of deleting of friends on Facebook).

Sometimes, I catch myself wondering, “Why am I being bothered about the same shit that bothered me back in school?”. It  makes me feel like a kid.

Takeaway: At the end of the day, the solution for most problems in life is to simply let go. Try not to have a firm grasp

As much as you want to live life to the fullest, you need to catch up

At the start of 2012, I got back to my part-time job as a club bouncer. I felt great. The money felt okay then and I was working on my blog every day. Good mix yes?

It’s now a year later and everything has changed.

I’m tired most of the time at work. I’m also tired with the blog sometimes even though I’ve made a lot of progress. I got a girlfriend now and I just want to be with her always.

Also, I turned 27 last year. 27 suddenly, really sounded old to me for some reason. I feel like I got to really step my shit up today, or I’ll never make it.

Takeaway: Life keeps on going, whether you like or not. Also, your priorities WILL change along the way. So always be prepared. But try to be happy along the way…

I love my family

This is us in Vegas.

photoBack in 2007, we also went to California. And it was bad for me. I was just not used to being around family too much and the unfamiliar surroundings made it all overwhelming.

My mom had a blast this year. I’ve never seen her so happy. This trip was a lot better for me too.

Takeaway: I wish the best for all of you, that you have the fortune of having a good family. Family is blood, and no matter what, they’ll always be there for you. Love your family.

Final takeaway:

Collect memories.

Please do.

Although I feel fearful and get overwhelmed by self-doubt from time to time, although I’m not filthy rich or the best Bboy in the world, although I’m not in society’s eyes, considered a great example of stability, I collect memories. 

The way I see it, no amount of money, stability, employment, career prospects, popularity can ever take away permanent visions etched in my mind.

They’re with me for life and I intend to keep it that way.

So when I’m old and dying on my death bed, I can look back to them.

“What if?” will never enter my mind.

Peace,

Alden

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14 comments

  1. Lavanya - January 4, 2013 4:51 am

    Good going Alden! Keep living (the real living for life ) !

    Reply
    • alden - January 4, 2013 6:59 pm

      Thanks! You too!

      Reply
  2. shawn - January 4, 2013 5:07 am

    Good job Alden. Glad to hear your taking full advantage of what life throws at you. Keep at it man. Those checks can only get bigger & things take time. maybe just increase the quality of your content and im sure youll triple what you did in ’12

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    • alden - January 4, 2013 6:58 pm

      Thanks Shawn! That I will 🙂

      Reply
  3. Erik - January 4, 2013 5:19 am

    Hey Alden, I’ve followed your blog off and on for a while now, and you’ve shared a lot which has been helpful to me and others, so thank you.

    I like this post about families and memory. You’re right, it’s super important. I’ve been spending time with my grandmother recently, just trying to look at her hands and hear her stories when she’s still alive and able to talk well.

    And thanks also for that old adage of yours: “Chill the f*** out.” It’s come in useful for me.

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    • alden - January 4, 2013 6:58 pm

      That’s awesome Erik! Be there for your grandma.

      Good on you! Keep living.

      Reply
  4. Anthony Lee - January 4, 2013 4:44 pm

    This is what my friend affectionately refers to as “the process”. It is wonderful you are willing to catalogue it all for us. So we know we arent alone. So we can see even those we admire go through similar hardships.

    I get that nagging feeling all the time. The “what if I DONT make it?” sinking feeling in your gut accompanied by those words bouncing relentlessly through your head. Take heart that youve made so much progress after a year. After close to 2 years I must assume it will take some of us longer than others.

    That is great that you can work part time at your job while focussing full time on your dream. I cant WAIT for that to happen. Ever since my first daughter was born all I wanted was to be a stay at home dad. Ive spent 13 years trying (and failing) various ways to achieve that. Ive learned so much….and I know one day it will happen. Your triumphs give me hope.

    Keep up the good work.

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    • alden - January 4, 2013 6:57 pm

      Hey Anthony,

      Thanks so much man.

      Well you definitely have more on your plate! Having a daughter must be fulfilling on its own.

      Self-doubt can be a real bitch eh? But it’s up to you to rise up and move on:).

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  5. Cam - January 4, 2013 5:50 pm

    You were a big highlight of the year for me too homie. Thanks for the shoutout.

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    • alden - January 4, 2013 6:56 pm

      You too brother.

      Reply
  6. Aditya - January 6, 2013 2:53 pm

    Wow, great dude. Keep going and let’s rock 2013. Thanks for sharing this 🙂

    Aditya

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    • alden - January 6, 2013 11:31 pm

      No prob! Thanks for everything man awesome to have known ya.

      Reply
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